Cynthia Daffron & Neil de la Flor & Mario Matus
He said: Belly dancing bears are born and live and explode into Big Bang
bits all at once. Time, the fourth dimension where all things happen at
once, is just a trick.
She said: Youíve scheduled a meeting with your neighbor, who once
slept with your wife, the one who steals your newspaper. You plan to
kill him, but you donít know yet whether you will, you donít know if
youíll go against God and commandments. But the cat in the box knows,
Schrodingerís cat knows by the beating of his heart if he is alive or
dead or both.
I said: Cats! What does the big bang have to do with belly dancing? What
is a belly? Why is my belly expanding? Did the infant universe expand
like the big belly? Yogi! Iíve lost my bandwagon. I think I left it
behind Schro(ding)erís cat. My poor cat is all dead. Orange and white,
he was just balding between the ears. One day, kaaaboom! Kawabunga! I
never slept with the neighborís wife but I just had sex.
He said: So if quantum time is all time at once, where is the
trancing-transliminal state? The are no borders in all at once, because
it is allÖtransliminal is all and neither, at once, the contradiction,
the holding of two truths (self-evident or not) that work together.
I said: What? Have you read the book Arrow of Time by Illya Prigogine?
He won the Nobel Prize in Chemistry in 1977. Just now I searched the web
and discovered he died May 28th, 2003. I never truly understood his work
but I think itís transliminal. His main scientific work focused on a
better understanding of the role of time in the physical sciences and
biology. He contributed significantly to the understanding of
irreversible processes, particularly in systems far from equilibrium.
He said: Some much is given before the end.
She said: So, Roger the Cat, pet of childhood neighbors, long dead in my
linear experience, his fur stays soft and warm under my hand. Roger is
immortal in quantum time. I long for Roger, for the rabbit in the hat,
the belly dancing bear, the moments of grace that are absent from my
experience, skewed, linear, true to me, ethics sliding out glass doors
like spilt grease onto relative Mexican tiles.
I said: I long for Illya. I long for him to explain to me the context of
time. Is it really linear? Do we really die? At the end of life, is
there another land? A Borderlands? Space of some sort, like turf or
beach sand? Illya, do you hear me? If I reverse Schrodingerís cat will
I find the anti-cat? Isnít all experience linear, Illya? If so, isnít
all literature. Is literature a measure of time or a reflection of it?
She said: Neil tangos with a rose held in his teeth.
She said: He tangos with a sheep beneath his feed.
She said: Mario shakes and sings ďSuspicious Minds.Ē
She said: A little lives in all of us. Few of us ever live.
She said: In Minnesota, the school buses have shelters (for
the living and the dead, Neil said) so you donít freeze in the
winter waiting to go off to school, donít disappear off the line into
a period dot, end of sentence, 1969 - 2004, RIP. Ripped and curled, you
could also, in an alternate reality, be surfing in Hawaii, one armed
like that girl, a shark swimming away, sated with a full meal.
I said: Who died in 2004? Who hasnít died, yet? Multiply the 2 by 4
and you get a glimpse of history.
He said: In quantum time, all things are being BANGed. In the
quantum time, all things fall apart. Entropy is the fairest of judges.
Entropy is your motherí milk. Entropy is your fatherís breath upon
her neck. Entropy is we.
I said: The second law (of thermodynamics) states that a closed system
will remain the same or become more disordered over time, i.e. its
entropy will always increase.
He said: Bang-bang!
New Scientist, July 2002, read: One of the most fundamental rules
of physics, the second law of thermodynamics, has for the first time
been shown not to hold for microscopic systems.
It also said: Results: researchers led by Denis Evans found the change
in entropy was negative over time intervals of a few tenths of a second,
revealing nature running in reverse.
And: By using a precise laser beam to trap latex beads it was discovered
the bead was gaining energy from the random motion of a water
molecule-the small scale equivalent of a cup of tea getting hotter.
She said: Well, if I cross a border, a limit, an edge does that
line/space/horizon cross me? Can one really split the infinite?
Constructions of human fallibility? Where do the constructions end and
the constructing begin? Can we leave the space into which weíre born?
Can we traverse the wide open space of our lives?
I said: Follow Illya, he knows the limit. But leave your chromosomes
He said: I think Bongo is the best belly-dancing bear there ever was.
Thereís a picture of him performing with the Moscow circus in 1948 in
a book somewhere. He wears a red hat (or we assume itís red) since the
pic is in B&W, but was it red? Who knows / who cares? Bongo the best
belly-dancing bear and he is dancing with me. And Roger purrs contently
as he enters the picture because he lives in Cynís quantum time and
even though I didnít know him, I know him now because I know Cyn. One
degree of quantaration. All Cyn had to do was write about him and now heís
part of me.
I said: The red bear is black and white and is also red. His name is
Roger and it is not Roger. Who is Cyn? One degree of separation could
get you up into a quantum wind. Mints, anyone?
He said: Is that the next step? The sharing of mints? Thoughts and
ideas? Feelings and memories? Where are Schrodingerís bones? Youíre
right here with Cyn and I. Cyn is here with you and me. Iím here with
Cyn and you. The convenant is 3Öplus 1Öthose that regard/know the
I said: Zinger! Itís about opening vortices from the experiential
world into the transliminal. Itís about drilling holes into our bones.